The Dreamy Idealist

I am a Dreamy Idealist.

God. I have no clue what career suits me best. I've been threading through Mass Comm, English, Writing, Psychology, Sociology, Behavorial Studies (about human behaviors), and even Linguistics. So right now, I can't apply to universities yet because I don't know what degree to pursue.

I've reached a point where I'm becoming really desperate to make up my mind. I wish I just knew from the very start what suits me, so I wouldn't have to go through this whole dilemma. It's frustrating. My dad keeps telling me to do Marketing because it's flexible and Marketing graduates can easily land a job in any company. But it never occurred to me to get a degree in Marketing. My mom says I should do English (studying the details of grammar usage, literature, etc) and I think it's going to be really boring, because it doesn't open the Creativity window.

I am going to spend at least 2 - 3 years studying for the degree, so I want it to be something I actually enjoy doing, and at the same time, a reputable degree that is well-required. I like something which makes me think out of the box. I like assignments that require me to move around; interview people (if I have to), try out new things. I was talking to my lecturer on Friday, and I told her I don't know what to study. She asked me this: "What kind of life do you want next time? I don't suppose you would like to sit at your desk all day long, right? You probably want to move around and travel as much as you can. So, pick a job like that."

I told her my mom wanted me to study the English language and be an English major, and then she said I could study Linguistics and be a translator. "Translators earn alot of money. They're in high demand. And they get to travel alot too." My lecturer said. For a moment, I almost wanted to do that. I figured that I could quickly take up Mandarin classes. Then I could be a Chinese-English translator. And if I go to USA, I would pick up Spanish classes too, cuz it's the widest spoken language in Europe, besides English.

And like few minutes ago I was talking to my college mate and he said I could do TOURISM and be a Tour Guide! Do I even need a degree for that? 0.o

So you see, that's why I took that personality test so I could find out more about myself, and which job would suit me better. So far, I haven't arrived at a conclusion yet. This is annoying.

Captivated

The camera is one of the most amazing man-made obejcts in history.



With just a single click, it can capture life, freeze it, and make it last for eternity.

I know someone who has a life journal, made up of photographs. No words, just pictures.

What a great idea!

When I get a DSLR one fine day, I'm going to start a photo journal too! :)

PS: I'll be updating my photoblog soon!

Change

You know how they always way, if you want things to change, you need to be the change?

And if you want to be the change, something in you has got to go. Be it an old habit, or stepping out of your comfort zone, you need to throw something away in order to grasp something new.

You can't have both; holding on to that battered old safety rope can't take you any further than now. To venture out and try something new requires courage; the passion to face the future.

You don't have to start somewhere big. You can start somewhere small. Like, the mind. It's the place where things begin and end.
And the best part of all is, you get to control it.

It's not really the perplexity of life that amuses me.
It's actually the simplicity of it.

Movie Analysis

I love watching movies. My mom used to say that I watch them too often sometimes; if only they were work related, I'd have a totally good reason.

And now I do.

For our Sociology group assignment, we're required to pick a movie and analyze it critically through the various theories taught in class. So I had a very good reason to plant myself in front of the TV this week :) I watched two DVDs chosen by my group mates; The Boy In The Striped Pajamas and The World Unseen.

The Boy In The Striped Pajamas is a story of an innocent 8-year-old boy named Bruno, whose father is the chief commandant of the German Army during World War 2. So they move to the countryside when the dad gets promoted, and Bruno befriends a Jewish boy on the other side of the fence, thinking that his new friend lives on a farm. Little does he know, the "farm" is actually an extermination camp for Jews.

I loved the way the story was being projected, especially through the eyes of an innocent child.

This is a must-watch!

The World Unseen isn't my type of movie, to be honest. It's about two young women who fall in love under very complicated circumstances. But this movie tackles strong issues like racism, chauvinism and so forth.

I think Sociology is pretty linked to Psychology; and it also taps on sensitive issues that Psychology doesn't cover much about, like the truth about gender disorders, racism and socialization.

A Day Out With Dana

On Friday, I went to One U with Dana. :) We had lunch at O'Briens because she claimed that the sandwiches there were much better than Subway's.

Order their specialty: a cold wrappo

I thought O'Briens was alright, but I still miss Subway's! After that, we checked out the shops. We spotted a few items that we liked, but unfortunately, both of us were runninng on a tight budget. So it was mostly window shopping for us.

Do you know what disappointment is?
Disappointment is when you want something but can't have it because you're not made for it. Or in this case, it's more like, the thing that you want so much isn't made for you.

I wanted to get a new pair of heels/wedges. I don't know how some people can say that "all shoes look alike" because they don't! Haha. Every shoe is unique. And some shoes fit well, while others are just better off on the shelf. Anyway, I found a denim pair of wedges that I really liked at Vincci. The price was within my budget, and now I needed some assurance to support my attempt to purchase the shoes. I kept asking Dana, "What do you think of this?" And she was like "It's cute."

So I asked the sales lady, "Do you have this in size 4?"
She said she'd go and check. When she went off, I was telling Dana how much I really wanted it.
Then the sales lady came back and told me, "Sorry. The smallest size we have is Size 5."

The first thing that came to my mind was: you gotta be kidding me. I haven't been shopping in ages and I finally discover a pair that I'm so in love with and now she tells me they don't have it in my size.
I looked at all the other shoes in the shop but none of them were as attractive as the denim wedges. Dana said that maybe I wasn't meant to buy those shoes. Because if they were meant for me, they'd fit perfectly. Which they didn't. You know, my feet size are a 4.5. And yeah that's why it's always so hard to get shoes. =.= So, pretty shoe shops like Vincci and NOSE should really start catering for those with small feet.

So when I left Vincci, I was disappointed. But anyway, since we couldn't shop for clothes or shoes, we decided to spend some cash on... stationery! It was Dana's fault... mostly. Lol. She was like "Ooh look!! Sharpie markers!" Then I went over and saw colorful Sharpie markers on sale. I don't collect Sharpie markers... and I've never been in love with them. But before I knew it, I was happily carrying a bunch of them to the counter.

Everyone needs a colorful life.

So much for being a "practical shopper". But anyway, I'll make sure those Sharpie markers don't go to waste. They're quite a good investment, actually. I can use them to decorate stuff, write on CDs, doodle... anyway I'm sure there will be a time when they come in handy. I'll ensure that.

We watched He's Just Not That Into You and both of us just weren't that into it. It was quite a predictable movie about various dating scenarios.
Desperate girl + Not so desperate guy = disaster .
Married man + single sexy girl = disaster.
woman wants to get married + man doesn't want to get married = disaster.

So this movie would give really good advice on how to both pursue and avoid disastrous relationships.
Yawns. I think I'd rate it 3 over 5? It's a basic chick flick movie. It's the kind of movie that girls would like to watch with their best friends . . . and guys would try to avoid it.

For dinner, we ate at Nando's. I miss the chicken and Peri-Peri sauce!! While we were waiting for our food, I witnessed an embarrasing accident in front of my eyes. A few tables away, a waiter was holding a try with a milkshake on it. As he bent to serve the drink, so did the tray, and the drink splashed down the front of a woman's blouse. And she was wearing white. Ouchhh.

Anyway, after a hearty meal at Nando's, we left for home.
It's been ages since I last went shopping. So thank you so much Dana babe! I really had fun! :)

Goofing around in Forever 21!

And like I promised, a post with you in it! :) Cheers!

Bitter Sweet

They say that love is a perfect combination of both bitter and sweet. The irony of it all makes it even more intriguing and addictive.

That's why the Dark Berry Mocha Frappucino is the ultimate concoction of a bittersweet drink. Not only does it taste surreptitiously good; it leaves you longing for more. And that's how I got addicted.

Ice blended mocha served with a swirl of whipped cream and berry sauce.

I still think that Starbucks serves the coolest flavored coffees. Yesterday, I went to Starbucks with Vivi and we both decided to just splurge. So we both ordered a Dark Berry Mocha Frap each, paid Rm14.70 for it and went to sit down and enjoy the drink. It was sinfully delicious!

And here's something else that is bitter sweet...

Studying for the SAT exam.

I have exactly one month to study for it, because I'm taking the exam on June 6.

Studying for it is bitter. I mean, who likes poring over hard questions for hours? But everyone always says you have to be optimistic. So when I set my eyes on the goal, I try to picture good results, and that's the sweet part about studying so hard. A high SAT score is an open door to getting accepted into universities, and if I'm lucky, I might obtain a scholarship... which is what I'm really passionate about right now.

Everything is bitter sweet, after all.

The 2 Weeks

My blog is not dead.

See, I revived it.

Yeah, anyway. My 2-week semester break is coming to an end. I can't believe that time flies so fast when you're having holidays. Yet I haven't gone out or anything. The only constant things I've been doing are going online, watching dvds and hitting the gym and going for dance classes with my bestie.

Oh, I went to college today to enroll. I'm taking two subjects this semester since I don't have anything else to take. I might be doing a degree in Creative Writing. Lol. What do you people think? Wise? Unwise? I've been playing it over and over again in my head and in the end I just decided that I'll do it.

So anyway, I'll be doing Sociology and English Composition when college reopens... which is next week. I love my time table. I only have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays =D awesome. that would give me enough time to prepare for the SAT exam in June.

I think I'm excited to get back to college.
The drama, the noise, the people, the laughter, the stress.

Damn I miss that.