Truthfully speaking, I am quite a fickle-minded person. When presented with a wide range of choices, I become extremely indecisive.
Last year at college, I spent 30 minutes of my free time deciding where to eat, and the next 30 minutes at the shop deciding what to eat.
On certain days, I take almost an hour choosing what to wear.
Then I complain that I don't have enough clothes.
I can spend an hour in a shopping mall, and still not buy anything because I believe in the "buy-the-best" theory, which means I need to spend my money on the things that I really, really like and not the ones that I think are quite mediocre.
But when I set my mind on something, it's quite unlikely that I'll change it. Unfortunately, I have a hard time fixing my mind on something. My thoughts are always racing through my mind, thinking of new possibilities.
I wish I could be less fickle-minded. Then I wouldn't have so many blank spaces in life.
My major concern now is my university. Almost everyone that I know has already applied, or is planning to apply to a certain university. But I don't have a clue where to go. I'm still considering a handful of universities... like UNL, UCA, and maybe this small little university called Graceland Uni... but I'm doubtful.
If I've made the right decision, I would feel the peace.
But I'm NOT peaceful now. Because suddenly, a new option opened up: Australia. Now my choices have spread over to a different continent, and it's even harder to decide. At the end of the day, there's only one university that I'm destined for.
How do people make decisions so easily? I'm impressed and envious at the same time. They save the time and trouble wasting thoughts on unimportant issues. If only my mind could function like that. Lol. Then I'd be a really different person.
I think I know my middle name now.
Carissa Fickle Gan.
2 comments:
Why u called youself "Carissa Fickle Gan"?! I'm pretty sure that this doesn't help at all... I wanna tell u that U ARE NOT FICKLE! Dont't get me wrong that I'm not here to reprimand u... Yea, I understand how u feel. There are so many choices in our lives that we need to choose. Not every 1 is easy to be made. Choosing a UNI is related to ur future perspective, so is very normal that u still wondering where u'll go... Dont treat a temporary indecision so seriously. Look, I'm not better than u though, I still wonder when can I start my studies. But I have no given up. I say all these because, I dont want to c u look so down, like me before...yet this was what my bro helped me before...and he doesnt want me to say bad abt myself, so likewise this goes to u. whenever fall down, the oni way is to get up. Anyway, is my pleasure that u shared ur thoughts. Dont lose hope, and never give up! P/s: Carissa Victorious Gan :)
Prayer. =]
"U will know it when U r there."
that's what i really want to tell ya. keep brainstorming... While u r waiting for the answers.
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